curcol in d morning

am feeling flat now...everything runs...flat. guess i need a wake up call to gimme strength to achieve want i been looking for. somebody pls wake meee...

continuing bout yesterday, i didn wait for my fren any longer. after approx 30mins of waiting i left the parking lot. d shitty thing is she didn' call me to say sorry or sumthin. hello, it's her who wants to meet me, said that she needs some1 to talk to during difficult times. now as she didn' appear, this is d time to get mad at her, but i feel it's not necessary...i rest my case but i dun know if i can forgive her.

many times she said that i've been busy n forget bout her, hard to meet me, blah blah blah. think i've been very cooperative these days when it comes to meeting old fren...u name d date n place. well, it's still morning, let's not sweat it..many things need attention. this stupid dating thing is not supposed to affect nothing.

happy working :P

canceled to watch JJF

Yoo..

Canceled my plan to go to Java Jazz today. I just dun feel like seeing
a crowded place full of ppl. Nd to have a silent nite n juz having a
light chat wit a fren. This's wat am gonna do now. Finished d massage
n creambath @ salon near my house, and now am ready to meet old fren.

One thing bout her..she's d one n only fren whom I get approval from
my bolly to hang out with. The others are juz...not easy. Well, this
girl is seriously need a gud alarm. Been 15 mins am waiting her @ d
parking lot, n she's still not here. Can't contact her also. Now am
thinking, is it worth it to cancel Java Jazz juz to meet this
gal...hmmmm..

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white lies

Helping others by cheating. God, teach me how to 4give this guy. Once
a liar always a liar, right?

I can't believe that d office' driver is cheating for all these times.
He bought highway ticket from taxi driver and use it to get
reimbursement from d office. Not only that, he was also faking finish
time in order to get higher overtime. I believed he did that ever
since d office hired him.

Wat a jerk. I backed him up all the time, and give wat he asked me
to..borrowed him money n also giving some cash occasionally. I never
bother to check on the time listed in his overtime form, thought he
only get lil so let's not be stingy. Some users were also given him
some cash when they use d car.

For everything we did to him, he's still cheating. Said that he had a
lot of children to take care n also his father is sick, hence d money
is essential -- this I agree, but does d cheating is also essential?

I talk to him about his cheating n how shocked n dissapointed I am, he
felt sorry for that. Hours after, he smsed me said that he wants to
borrow some cash from me. I didn reply his sms, of course. This man is
already losing his dignity.

Thank God I've a fren to listen n give some nice advices. I told him
evrything about this n he returns wit a heartwarming suggestions. He
gamme such amount that d driver wants and ask me to give it to d
driver because my fren feel sorry for d driver' economic conditions.

I rejected his money right away. I said I never like d driver' face,
reminds me of a politician who has a devil face...d face u can never
trust. I know it's not fair to judge a book by its cover, but this
'book'...I'd rather not to even just to see d cover from a glimpse.
Many 'books' I've to deal wit everyday n nd my attention, I better
stay away b4 this insignificant 'book' ruin my day.

My dear fren give a revelation for me and remind me bout Jesus who
saves d world...saints, sinners...all r saved bcuz of his sacrifice.
Wat's d use if we only love d ppl who loved us? Don't Jesus said that
u've to love ur enemy? Everybody's deserved a 2nd chance. I was stood.
Nobody ever told me this thing when am grumbling. He is wise in d way
I can accept it.

After waiting in minutes for me to reply his sms, d driver was coming
to my desk to ask me bout d money directly. After hearing from his
side regarding his condition etc. etc., finally his tears come out
when telling me bout his sick father. God, am so sorry but I juz dun
know why can't I feel pity for this man. I dun have even a lil
sympathy. I heard that this driver had at least 15 orphans to take
care, plus now his own father who is sick.

It might be hard to survive, and at this stage...there must be a
sacrifice, u nd to let go something, and pick which is much more
important. I'd prefer parents on top of everything. Anyway, talk is
cheap, maybe I juz dun understand wat d fuss is really goin on. I
still thinking if u want to help others, u cannot feed em wit 'harram'
money. The thing he did is a subordinate of white lies.

Deep inside I know he wants to use me, maybe he thought it's bcuz am a
woman so I should've feel sympathy easily, well I don't -- my heart is
freezed already. But I gave him such amount he asked. He said that he
will repay after d payday, I said no nd.

This will b d last, since this is not d 1st time he asked.

D next day, my fren send me a link thru chat:
http://s140.blueapple.mobi/85/51/8551e4d2b037afeed79b18cf4ca9c288/ba124807/8551_w_1.3gp?c=149514562&u=134837393&s=BJvq

U nd to save d link before open it. It's about sacrifice. Cried my
tears out when watching d climax bcuz am still on d train, am d angry
one.

Blessings,
M

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androgyny

Yooo...

Is Lady Gaga really a man? Bolly is brokenhearted to hear that. I
don't buy that gossip, it's d stupidest thing I heard since rumor that
am lesbian back when I was still in college. Read wiki n it's a hoax,
but my brokenhearted husband didn trust me -- if he was in my college
back then, he might be believe am lesbian too -_-'

Guys, Megan n Gaga are truly gal, who might be androgyny..but that's
notha story. Why can't u accept a way-too-hottie artist just like that
without questioning their 'parts'? Just enjoy d view n shut d hell up,
will ya..

Gotta go to cheer bolly n say wat I juz wrote

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only for kaypoh

am back for a fan...

I stop writing fer a while due to there's a pathetic kaypoh who
printed all my blogs n read it over n over again for the sake of
knowing d real me. Well, I don't give a s***... now. Only if u tend to
like to print something, pls print Harry Potter 7th book. I have d
softcopy n didn have d chance to read it cuz I dun like to read from
laptop, but also didn want to print it due to printing cost conscious.

I understand u dun have a life n real frens u can hang out n spend
time with, so I tried to help u here, u can print it for me...and
maybe there'll be notha printing tasks for u to do if u make me
satisfy. I know u like my writings, so am gonna make lotsa blogs just
for u to read every day n nite til u drop -- that's what I'll give ya
in return. Sounds fair, huh??

Well, also I dun want to fake anything. This is d real me which u r
facing now. If u want to know me more, am not like any other
gal..especially u, am not boring like u. Welcome to d dark side of me,
dear. I do anything I want, if that's make me a bitch, ok :*

Your gorgeous foe,
M

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my bff' wedding

Am not a gud fren, actually am sucks. I didn come to my bff wedding, n
when I want to apologize thru sms, very smart I didn keep her mobile #
bcuz I lost some contacts in . I didn want to call her @ d first
place bcuz I can't stand her dissapointed voice. She's my bff since I
was in college. Since am a bit antisocial back then, she's d only one
who understands me n we shared lotsa things together. I also had some
gals to share jokes n acting silly together, but I spent more time wit
her.

She was there @ my wedding, n there's no reason I didn come to her. If
only my hubby wasn't sick, or I cud leave him and juz drive to Harapan
Indah in a heavy rain. I cud do that. I cud drive to somewhere Bekasi,
I cud face d traffic n big2 truck on my way there, I cud stand
angkot..crazy bikers..even d rocky roads. But why didn I????

I owe her my big apologize. Fyi, it's not my 1st tym didn come to my
bff' wedding bcuz of unforeseen stuffs, n for that am truly sorry.
Wedding gift altogether wit apologize gift on it's way, dear.

Faraway, yet always thinking of u.

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nyalon pagi2

Gud morning world. Udah sampe Laris neh, n dgn semangat '45 mao
creambath n massage...taunya br bs jam 8, jam segini mah baru bs cuci
blow...yasudlah gw cuci blow saja.

Ga biasanya butuh pijit so bad kayak gini. Ini imbas kmrn nungguin
Bolly yg masih byk urusan d Ritz, PP sampe jam 11an. Thou kmrn byk
makhluk kewen2 yg ikutan Fashion Week, tetep aja ga bisa tune.

Maybe I shud drop by @ lunch time. Anyway, knp mbak2 yg nge-blow gw
tangannya gemeteran...blm makan kali ya.. Gemeteran boleh mbak, asal
jgn pake lama, tar keburu 3 in 1..

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