b4 I close my eyes

Lg seneng gigit pipi Bolly...I found his cheek like a ripe red apple
He seemed scared of my new habit, maybe he thought am gonna eat his
cheek like Hannibal Lecter did in Silence of the Lambs :D

It's already time to go to land of dreams, but I cannot. Tried not to
think of anything n it works, there's nothing in mind at d
moment...but I know they'll all b coming once I shut my eyes. Wish
there's a medicine that can make me sleep n not giving any chance for
my mind to think on the way there (sleep).

Mmm..I nd to sleep so tomorrow am strong enuff to face d day. Or,
since the doomsday issue been crazier these days, I just hoping I'll
wake up in heaven...a real one, of course ;)

See u God.

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from d bottom of my broken heart

Sometimes org naif kayak gw perlu dikasih liat jelek2nya orang, so gw
ga nganggep smuanya lurus2 aja. Someone like me wud always do sumthin
to d best n not take it for granted, but I left a big mistake...I
never wanted to take any credit for wat I've done. That's where am
wrong. I learned today that if u did sumthin, u've to let ppl know, so
they can give sort of a compliment..which for whole these times I
thought it was silly n so lickie.

Well, I don't want to sweat wat am feeling now. I'll find my way to
get away from all these sh***. I don't do lick ass (except literally
;P); not looking after compliments; avoid politics n hypocrisy. So,
take me or leave me. Lesson learned today is "don't work too hard,
family must always b d 1st priority."

Am so full of anger now, n trying not to throw it up to anyone so am
writing here. Writing makes me calm, besides a bottle of wine, of
course ;) Since am already broke due to this month' expenses seemed to
be floating like hell, guess blogging is more reasonable than
drinking. So u'll know where am I away if not blogging...JK :D

Am outtiiiieee..

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The Rebound

Been a very bad blogger I know. Udah lama ga update and now I just
want to give some light updates about d last movie I seen.

Last monday I watched The Rebound. It's a so called a-true-movie. It's
true because d words n d feelings just got into me. Ceritanya ttg
single mom (hubby was cheated on her), shifted to big town with her 2
lil children. Since she's a carreer woman, she needs a nanny to take
care d kids, so there's the cutie berondong to be d nanny. One thing
leads to another, they're naturally falling in love with each other.

Actually not d romantic story that keeps me thinking. There's a part
where d couple split up for like 5 years before they get together once
again at the end of the movie. What's got me interested is how they
live their life n still move on. Am so touched by the way d guy
spending d years by doing humanity works, going to India n Africa to
help poor people, make changes, build something up, having fun with
different kind of ppl..in short, he discovered n enjoyed d true face
of d world.

Life is too short to be ordinary.

Right now am not thinking on going somewhere decent. If someone ask me
to go to Africa (dibayarin yaa..) to help poor ppl, I'd jump from my
seat n say out loud "I Do!!"

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me vs hi heels

Evening,

Sblm bubu, me mo curhat dulu soal kaki...hikzz,, lagi pegel bener krn
keseringan pake hi heels. Emang lately gw pake hh mulu. Nggak sengaja
sih, tp emang pas gw liat koleksi d lemari yg ada banyakan hh. Sampe
binun sendiri knp ngga ada yg teplek n nggak nyakitin betis itu.
Kalopun bkn hh, yg ada tuh selop2 model bakiak (dun know wat it
called). Sdikit flash back, kalo beli spatu gw emang ngasal aja, kalo
keliatan nice ya dibeli..tnp memperdulikan kenyamanan. Haduuuhhh..ini
yg harus saya ubah kalo masih sayang sm kaki n ga mao kena varises.
Talking bout varises, gw takut bgt kalo smp kena..alamat ga bs pake
mini skirt lg duonk *winkwink*

Kmrn tuh baru brasa pussiiinnggg bgt pake hh krn baru ganti pake yg
laen..model tertutup gt (yg gw sering pake talinya copot..pdhl blm ada
sebulan gw beli). Fyi, ga ada sepatu yg bertahan lbh dr setengah taun
sm gw...berapapun harganya. In my case I can say that men are much
more loyal than shoes *lol*

Hari ini gw pake sendal hh yg byasa, which I felt comfy n got used to
run wit...but apparently, efek dr pake spatu hh yg kmrn masih brasa.
Ini pusing n pegel datengnya dr bawah naik ke kepala. Am surprised of
how this thing cud make such a dizzy. Apalagi pas lunch td d PP n
liftnya penuh mulu, so I've to walk thru d escalator...wth.

Anyway, this weekend am goin to hunt sendal teplek..shud definitely
hav at least 1.

Skrg kakiku yg stres ini lg beristirahat. Barusan gw rub pake
counterpain byar urat2nya ga kusut lg. Smoga aja bsk ud bs lincah lg.

*goin to land of peace*

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choosy buyer

S'up...

Banyak banget yg pengen di-update tp ga sempet buat nulis. To b honest
gw agak kcewa ma myself,  bukannya bikin gw makin rajin nge-blog
malah bikin tambah jauh..jadi kerjaan gw tiap ari kalo lg megang2 
cuman chat, fb n browsing aja...totally useless. Untung diingetin ma
si gothe, temen aneh tp nyata masa kul, supaya di-update lg blogkuw
ini :)

So, today is d last day dr long wiken. Dedekuw baru aja plg. Sblm dy
plg I anter dy blanja d ambas yg tambah crowded n makin kaya pasar.
Katanya sih mau cari sepatu pantofel item teplek n celana panjang
item. Ga banyak sih, tp dede tuh kalo cari barang udah ke-set di
otaknya, very spesific. Ga bisa melenceng dari bayangannya sedikitpun.
So u've to be fully sabaaarr n rajin mengelus buah dada, karena dy
akan jelajahin semua tempat yg ada demi utk ngedapatin apa yg dy mao,
exactly d same.

Seperti byasa, kalo gw nganter org blanja, yg banyakan ngeborong ya
gw. Kali ini, dede ga beli apa2 tp kakaknya yg laper mata lgs
ngeborong ini itu. Dede bilang,"lo ga ngerasa bersalah beli sendal
mulu, harganya segitu lagi." N seperti byasa, I've no regrets at all.

See I dun understand why it takes so much tym to choose things that
she wanted? But I can't say nuttin -- guess it runs in d family. My
mom jg gitu soalna, kalo mau beli barang tuh heboh banget, belon acara
tawar menawarnya. Typical yg sangat cucok utk belanja d Brother Land.
As for me, guess I pretty much copied from my dad..ga mao pusing
nyari2 barang, n hav a tendency to juz grab anything in front of me, n
run to the cashier. I know what I wanted n having lotsa variety of
options in mind when it comes to something I need.

My sis is going back to d dorm wif empty handed, after spending more
than 3 hours mengukur jalan d itc n mall ambass. But I believe she'll
find what she wanted...if she just spend about a day or two, lookin it
at all malls in depok or bogor ;P Ciayo, sis.

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nu comer on d street

I got my driving license! Senangnya..nggak sia2 pengorbanan gw dtg k
samsat bekasi yg super panas n dpenuhi mas2 calo itu. Murmer euy,
cuman 350rb..jadi dlm waktu kurang lbh 1,5 jam. Ada tes teori n
praktek, but itu cuman formalitas aja..u know lah..

Anyway, abis plg bikin sim gw lgs mijit, n blajar nyetir ma bokap.
Hebat ya, punya sim dulu baru belajar nyetir ;D

Flashback dulu: 11 taun lalu, tepatnya pas umur gw 13 taun, bokap
ngajarin gw nyetir pake mobil kijang lama yg belon power steering.
Dulu udah bs maju doang. Itu sekali2nya bokap ngajarin. Skrg
tumben2nya ne bokap mau ngajarin lg..

So kita bljr d permata timur yg lumayan sepi n jarang mobil (tp byk
bgt polisi tidurnya). Thanks God, bokap dipenuhi kesabaran utk
ngajarin anak stubborn kayak gw..hehe..

Gw br sadar kalo kursus nyetir yg ud 2 weeks gw ikutin tuh means
nuttin. Instrukturnya itung2an waktu n nggak mau ngulang2 di 'titik2
kelemahan' gw. Bedanya bljar kursus sama bljar pake mobil sndiri ada
2, i.e:

1. Lo lbh pede nyetir pake mobil kursus krn ada instruktur d sblh yg
nge-guide, n nginjek rem kalo lo lupa, so lo bisa nge-gas terus ;D
kalo mobil sndiri kan ga bs dkontrol yg ngajarin..nabrak is nabrak,
man

2. Lo nggak worry kalo nyerempet pengguna jalan laen kalo u naik mobil
kursus kan ada asuransi. Kalo pake mobil sendiri, apalagi mobil gw
udah abis ass-nya..yah aga2 ga pede gitu loh kalo knp2..males k ketok
magic-nya..hohoho..

Anyway, sabtu ini gw mo bljar nyetir lagi..pokoke hrs bisa. Kalo masih
belon bisa, gw bakal ngabisin cuti gw hr senen mingdep dgn
nge-gazzzzzzz

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on leave

Waaaawaaww..udah lama bener ga nge-blog, udah tumpul lg ne kemampuan gw..hoho..

Tadinya gw pikir pake  bisa dgn mudahnya nge-blog dgn lgs ngetik d
website-nya. Taunya ga sgampang itu. Kudu daftar email blogger dulu n
ada secret word segala, but anyway skrg ud tau caranya so setidaknya
bs mngurangi addiction gw sm fb :P

Well, I'm on leave fer 2 days starting tday. Kegiatan gw hari ini
cuman buka fb, beresin rmh, buka fb, nonton, buka fb, k rmh
ortu..ngobrol2, buka fb lagi. Totally unproductive. Ini pertama
kalinya gw ngrasa ga betah d rmh. I nd to c people, not to interact
wit em. This feeling is new for me yg aga2 autis n antisocial (before)

Tomorrow I'm planning to get my driving license. Gw ud bljr nyetir dr
2 mgu lalu n ternyata ga sesulit yg gw bayangkan asal punya nyali
supir angkot yg untungnya gw miliki :P

Tar kalo udah bs kebut2an, baru deh gw jalan2 sendiri k puncak kalo lg
cuti gini. Secara, cuti hubby juga ga pernah nyambung sm gw..ya mao ga
mao utk cuti2 sehari dua hari kayak gini, kudu bs memanjakan diri
sendiri, sekaligus cuci mata pastinya ;D

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